My life is sooo ruined T_T
cant believe theres really no day for me to rest at all from mon to sun T_T
gotta work on my IS day + weekends T_T
sometimes i really wonder how long i can stand this kinda hectic lifestyle. but then again, i know i have the physical stamina to pull through. i'm just really tired mentally T_T
but as much as i want to, i wont quit this job cause i need the money. i'm not at all willing to return to the horrible days when i used to die over eating a meal at a fastfood restaurant due to miserable pocket money. i know my parents will give me as much as they can afford to, but thats not the way i want things to be. i know i'll be spending my money on stuff i can live without so no point making them scrimp, save & suffer just to let me have my way. i was never rich before i worked in BSS so i dont really need to be rich now. all i ask for, is to be reasonably rich. like i want to have enough money to go on outings with friends, eat good food occasionally & buy abit of the stuff i love. i dont think thats alot to ask for, but i know the amount offered by my parents isnt enough. so at the end of the day, i really have no choice but to stick with this job.
not that the job is that tough of course. i'm really just mentally tired.

my sucky life aside, today's a great day.
simply because its Hiroto's birthday today! *beams*
hope he has an awesome year ahead & hope he gets lots of lovely presents from his fellow bandmates in alice nine ^_^ oh & hope Akiya remembers to give him a present too! since Hiroto seems to admire him so much XD
will do the usual birthday piccie spam for him of course ^_^