on a brighter note, just watched Nana Kitade's ANTOINETTE BLUE PV *o*
i love that song so so soooo much! in fact, i've never exactly loved any of her song this much, except for Kanashimi no KIZU. but gah this song totally owns my soul. its sooo heart-breaking & the PV is just as sad T_T Nana's just doll-like & pretty as always. totally cant wait for this single to be out because i want to have this song in my iPod & i cant make do with a PV rip X_X i kinda wonder if the PV is of the full song since its just 3 min long. but either way, i wont mind because this song is already too good! and Nana really really improved sooo much on her singing! m(_ _)m
watched Nami's Brightdown PV again. gah shes really soooooooo hot! *o*
once i got over her hotness, i can see why people in her thread at JPM are mentioning about Kuu. after all, shes wearing as much cloth as Kuu in her dance scene in the fire XD still, it doesnt worry me at all. no matter how popular Nami gets, she wont be overcoming Kuu for a while. not that i favour Kuu more, but i think Kuu deserves her big break & she should at least get to enjoy her current status longer ^_^ i'm all for it if Nami wants to go the rockish sexy chick way ^_^ its really the most suitable for her IMO. afterall, you cant expect her to still be in her innocent Reason style because shes grown up. and seriously, from what i've seen in MY WAY's PV, i would rather she take any style than go the cute way -_-" it could be just me. but as much as i love MY WAY, her actions in that PV just makes my hair stand on end *shudders* but thats all in the past now XD its impossible to dislike Nami at all XD
^ hora! shes at the place alice nine shot their NUMBER SIX movie & thats where Merry shot their latest PV Komorebi ga Boku wo Sagashiteru *o*
i really feel so emo whenever i listen to KuRt's suppuration now. dont ask me why that song, because its just the most played KuRt song for me & i love that song T_T Tenten's really such a good vocalist until some bitch ruined his life. indeed i was never really all that familiar with the band members. but i've always remembered KuRt for their vocalist. and it really sucks to know what happened to Tenten. it kills too, to know that KuRt had their final live without Tenten T_T
whatever Tenten's doing now, hope hes happy.
some things are just so darn hard to get over i guess T_T
only, most of the things i cant get over concern my beloved J-rock bands. personally, the only thing that still kills me is how i know i'm screwed for life. screwed because i still CANT let go of this dream that will NEVER come true. been holding onto this dream for who knows how many years, and i know i really should have let go of it long ago. only, i still CANT. and thats even more screwed than the fact that my dream wont come true, because i'm really not a kid anymore & i should know what to do with my life. its just sad that i dont happen to know. again, its all thanks to that dream of mine again. my dreams are screwing me for real dammit.
but then again, its been ages since i cried over this sense of helplessness. simply said, i've given up on my life. so why bother crying? tears cant save me, so might as well use the time & effort to go watch another ep of anime or drool over a Ruki pic. TSK.
