Monday, December 03, 2007
Some things are just confusing the crap outta my head X_X
its to the point where i dont even know what i wanna do anymore, or even what to wish for X_X some people are just soooo hard to understand, some things are just soooo hard to get & gah! X_X
heh maybe at the end of the day, i dont even understand myself. still, i would rather not be thinking about all these stuff. i'm probably just working my brains harder than i should be anyway X_X
actually, i dont even know what i'm doing anymore X_X
but even at confusing times like this, some things remain unchanged.
its these things that keep me from losing myself in the whole pit of confusion ^_^
some things = my dream that can never be fulfilled + my love for Visual Kei + my love for everything Jap + my love for R*** (ya Ruki obviously XD)
speaking of Ruki, i'll seriously die if i fail to get the latest issue of SHOCKWAVE. the pics of GazettE in it are to die for *o* and no, i cant just make do with scans of those Ruki pics in it. i want the actual copy to drool over XD i've changed my mind about blonde Ruki people. blonde Ruki isnt the most princely, because theres no "most" princely anymore. Ruki is simply equally princely anytime, anywhere, & with any kind of hair XD
the number of times i died today cant be counted, thanks to my new Ruki handphone wallpaper *o*
Shar says she cant get me. well, i cant really get myself either XD
and actually, i feel really amazed by myself everytime i think about how long its been since i started worshipping Ruki sooooo hardcore-ly XD
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