Wednesday, January 30, 2008
2 more days to Ruki's birthday;
2 more days to freedom.
SSS viva later.
APT reasearch journal submission, COMT presentation, GAD viva on thurs.
PSP final project submission on fri.
cant wait for all these shit to be over man.
but i feel so deeply annoyed each time i think of work. especially when my source of irritation is still there.
hope its true that my source of irritation will soon be gone. but that day seriously cant come soon enough IMO.
until that day, i'll keep dreading having to go work.
i kinda lost the desire to buy 4D. i just found out, that i wont be able to buy that insanely pretty necklace Ruki designed, even if i have the money. GemCerey's webshop simply does not take overseas orders T_T
so i can keep dreaming about that necklace, unless i'm supposed to include the air tickets to Japan in my budget.
strangely, i rather not go Japan. if i ever manage to go there, i'll only become more miserable, and i'll only grow to hate my life even more (like i dont already do -_-). so unless i ever get rich or lucky enough to migrate there, i seriously rather not go there. and i'm sure no matter how much money i bring there, it'll never be enough. i definitely will have 10 thousand things i wanna buy & 10 thousand lives i wanna go to. and the thought of being in the same country as Ruki WILL kill me.
dreams will always be dreams, so its not too healthy to get any closer to the things in my dreams.
its the period where i'm feeling empty again. but thats part of my life.
i cant be happy all the time anyway. i'm darker than that.
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